Tell me when it kicks in…

Oh, no, no, don’t leave me lonely now
If you loved me how’d you never learn
Ooh, colour crimson in my eyes
One or two could free my mind

How did I not find myself in this mess? How do I now not prepare myself for the end that is most certainly in store for me? The fact that is has come full circle makes me just shrink and wither within myself. I just want it to end.

This is how it ends,
I feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream.
Fading out again,
I feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream.
So tell me when it kicks in.
Well, tell me when it kicks in.

How could I have convinced myself that I could win this game this time? That I could beat the odds? It’s really just a matter of time and I sit shivering and breathing – breath on top of breath – hoping that if I just give it a little more time. .. maybe I really am ok.

So tell me when it kicks in.

But that would be impossible… not this time. This time you have really fucked it up, Jamilouise…

All the voices in my mind
Calling out across the line

Time to go…

“Tell me when it kicks in
I saw scars upon her
Tell me when it kicks in
Broken-hearted”

8 thoughts on “Tell me when it kicks in…

    1. I know my butterfly friend!!! How ironic you wrote about butterfies!!! And posted it today!!!! You and Paisley and butterflies 🙂 I’m going to get thru it eventually. Thank you for being here Dyane!

      1. I love you J! Butterflies forever, honey!!!! You *are* gonna fly through it…..you are stronger than you think. Paisley told me so! (through a psychic communication!!!!!) Yeah, I’m nutters. XOXO

      2. When I first read that I thought it said a “psychotic” communication and I thought – well, of course it was psychotic, she’s my dog! Lmao! Yep! I’m nutters also….xoxo

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