You’re Univited… yeah, no not really… come on in

“Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
And like any hot-blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you’re not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight”

Except that’s not true at all. Show me some attention and I will show it back.
Doesn’t seem to matter these days who you are even. Tramp? Awe… I don’t particularly like that term. And in all seriousness, well, it’s not that serious because I’m not sleepin’ with any of ’em – this time around. Just looking. Lookin’ around thinkin’ about what I could do. Think that’s why I need the relationship I’m in because it’s keeping me from being that tramp – sorta…  Thus… your uninvited by default! Lotta defaults in my life!


“Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepherd meet shepherd
But you you’re not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight”

You could consider me “strangely exciting” for sure! Let’s get a little honest here. It’s not a good thing to have the thoughts that I do and rely on a relationship to keep me from acting on them…. Except that the relationship is as unhealthy as they come. So, let me talk a short bit (short, short bit) about my therapy sessions because that’s all we talk about in them. How unhealthy not only I am, but how unhealthy the actual relationship I am in is…

I’m just not strong enough to end it. That’s the consensus between Therapy Man and I. (Did I use “I” correctly? And, that was my short bit)

Fucking sucks to be bipolar. Sucks to have borderline personality. Sucks to have anything that keeps you from being able to be strong enough to stand up for yourself and take what you need for yourself! Not that I need sex from strangers.


This just went in the wrong direction!!! I’m just saying… I have this disease… half the time I’m so bent that I’m looking for validation ALWAYS in the wrong places and when I FINALLY wake up from the fucking fog of it all I realize I don’t even need it because I’m fine the way I am. Then I find out I got myself in a situation that I can’t get out of………….. do ya feel me people??? Wait, don’t feel me! That’s what gets me in trouble! Jesus, Mary and Joseph!

“Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight”

Uncharted territory? Not any longer…. I think it’s all been charted! Just sayin! It’s the thrill. Ya know? No, not the sex part… It’s the finding it. The game! The search! I could give a shit about it once I’ve gotten it. It’s the hunt! And, I’ve perfected it as of late. Do I sound proud? Eh, that’s the borderline part of me… Betty! She’s proud. Nah, fuck that. It’s me. I need to own up to my shit. I’m not proud of it at the moment. But, have some hot dude smile my way and I think I might have a chance… Look out, it’s on!

“I don’t think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate.”

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