I was sittin’ here yesterday writing after my “locked in the bathroom experience“… which sucked big time! I had the tv on and the concert from Veteran’s Day was replaying. I’m a sentimental piece of work, let me tell ya! And, I’m a huge “let the music move ya” gal. And I was movin’ – all the way from Carrie Underwood to Metallica. But the one that got me most was Eminem… NOW WAIT FOR IT! I’m not rap enthusiast, but – admittedly – I am a lyric whore. I steal people’s words all of the time. I use them to swing my own moods.
His “Not Afraid” is an old school song of his. I keep finding myself in last week. Which is not so bad for me. I usually land in 20 years ago. The fucked up part (excuse my language, but I’m preparing you for Eminem lyrics so what the hell) is that I feel guilty right now for feeling better so quickly. Yeah… the brain of a borderline freak. Now my brain is twisting around with the “I don’t feel better.” argument… eh! Ok, ooook.
His song? Feeling better? Or, not so bad? Why am I compromising with my brain? I just know that I HAVE to have better week than my last 7 days. I know I can. I realized yesterday while locked in the bathroom – I suppose that was God’s idea also…. he’s a sneaky shit! Oh… probably not cool to call him that. Especially on a Sunday. I realized that I may just be doing a lot of this out of habits that I’ve created to survive and maybe I don’t need them so much anymore…. I don’t know. It’s a theory I’m working on. As if I don’t have anything else to do… Um… I really don’t have much else… Anyway. Here’s a few of the lyrics. The video follows if you dare to open yourself up to some seriously decent rap… Otherwise… I’m off.
And I just can’t keep living this way
So starting today, I’m breaking out of this cage
I’m standing up, I’ma face my demons
I’m manning up, I’ma hold my ground
I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now! (now)
I’m not afraid (I’m not afraid)
To take a stand (to take a stand)
Come take my hand (come take my hand)
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just letting you know that you’re not alone
Holler if you feel like you’ve been down the same road (same road)