This song speaks to letting go of a lot of things… Someone told me the other day to just be happy and then everyone around me would be happy.
It’s all fixed now and I can move on! Because I am so worried about making everyone else happy. Jesus… I just wanna be happy. lol.
Ok. I know – they don’t get it. But on some level “they” do.
And on some level I wish my head got it like that. Now that I don’t have the “danger boy” around for a distraction I am slowly picking apart the relationship that is a good one. And I will destroy it. I’m in the process of it right now. I can feel it. It’s my head. It’s my head that won’t leave me alone. Thing is there is nothing up there… OK! BE NICE!
My head plays so many tricks on me – it’s crazy.
I get going and I can’t stop.
Before I know it,
hes cheating on me,
and he’s an ass,
and I should be alone,
and I’m moving the Basset Hound and myself out of the Lego Castle!
Done and Done!
It’s seriously that quick!
Fucks me up every time!
Oh, oh, oh…. then, there is the wrestling with the “am I right or am I wrong? Am I just being crazy Jami or is he really cheating” conversation that I have with my head for the next 6 hours after that! Fuck my life!
Letting go….. I wish like hell that I could LET GO of things. Anything. I just can’t. According to my mother I never have been able to. So, it’s back to the books… back to the whole idea of the battlefield and walking away. So! Damn! Hard! to walk away from the battlefield. But this summer, when I was able to…. it felt so nice. Granted I had “Danger Boy” occupying most of my brain at the time…. but, I’m sure I can do it. Now, apparently, I am not at a loss of things to occupy my time on the field… there are obviously still plenty of smelly orcs to fight.
I love me some Melissa tunes! This one is such a good one for so many things!
Gotta get outta my head! Gotta let go of the idea that people are trying to fuck with me all of the time!
Gotta let go! Over and out!