Sweet Detachment

So take my hand
and jump over this mess
this is a fairy tale
and you’re the damsel in distress
cross the river to the other side
I promise you that it’s nicer here
take your hands from your face
don’t hide
There is no reason for your fear
no reason for your fear…
– Alex Preston, Fairy Tale

Ah yes, the lyric queen has returned.

Sometimes I wonder if when I am actually beginning to feel normal (there’s the word again) I purposely seek out lyrics that bring me back to my place of detachment. Who does that? Who wants to actually detach from normal? Who fears normal?

THIS GIRL.

Sweet detachment…. And off I go… to avoid the feelings inside that make it hard to breath…
the feelings that make me so angry I can’t function in my classroom….
the feelings that make it impossible to carry on a normal relationship with a man who finally treats me the way I deserve.
Are all of these things “normal”? I am told that they are… so, I fear these things… I fear normal.

Off I go to the sweet comfort of detachment. While it wouldn’t seem like a fantasy world and I am certainly no damsel in distress… It serves the same purpose. It takes me away. And, it takes ME to the place where I am accustomed to… The place where I AM comfortable.

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